The curses of spiritual awakening

People advertise for their believes, because allies strengthen abstract concepts.
So religious people, Vegans, health-and sports gurus, or spiritual newcomers are on their “missions” to push their agenda onto others and persist despite lacks of success – simply in order to be “good” – usually by praising how beautiful their new-found ways would be.

Yet the reality usually is very different: Hardly anyone has a constant happy and fulfilled lifestyle and even the greatest motivators or masters can contract any kind of disease or die at any time and often the most celebrated and admired people have huge issues – all of which is usually dismissed with the Jokers of unexplainable “Karma” or “Fate”.

So why are especially people who work so hard to better themselves and the world often the ones who are laughed at most for not succeeding in what they preach or long for?

The answer lies in the shift of consciousness:
In music, 2 notes which are close together are called a second and usually sound rough,
the further away a note moves from the base note, the better it sounds – a fifth (which is called “Quint”) for example is 5 notes higher and can provide a quintessence, and when the same note is reached again, things harmonise on a higher octave:

The same aplies to rythms, or colors for example: unvafoable colors can clash
and often oppistes one match better (which is a reason for different kinds of people having a relationship).

So when someone awakens spiritually the person evolves out of the tribal mentality as Carolyn Myss explains it very well, there will be a huge friction – not only because of frictions in (color- or sound-)vibrations, but also,
because the surrounding one grew into does everything possible to keep one at bay in order to ensure everyones continued participation in it and therewith strengthening the tribe.

Especially family problems are a classic issue which make spiritual seekers look like eccentric black sheep,
who compensate for their inability to conform with “outlandish” hopes and projections onto forces which literally are “out of this (material) world”.

The realm of super-heroes satisfies that huge need (especially of not acknowledged teenagers)  and pacifies most materialists by giving them a way to let off some steam through comix or movies.

Yet there also are real miracles (the ones which usually are dismissed and simply accepted as unexplainable), which justify a life-long search for a higher purpose of genuine seekers who are not content of merely playing along for the sake of fitting in(to a much to tight jacket).

It usually just takes only one glimpse of what is dismissed as “Alices wonderland”, such as a moment of understanding or a dream,
to never wanting to buy into the illusion of Maya and play along with the brainwash pushed on us by greedy people in forms of advertised material needs.

And if you are one of the people who “got it”, now you have the problem:
By starting to question a few fundamental maximes you triggered an avalanche from without and within at the same time:
The outer world will react to your “in-sights” with tremendous aversion for their world is literally rocked and your inner world also is shaken,
because you start to see what kind of a fool you were for having slept for ages.

This then will lead to a disaster of you becoming more and more sensitive, whilst your immediate surrounding will treat you with contempt, aggression and schadenfreude.
It is shocking to see how most people will actually “kick a man when he is down” and not the least feel guilty about being responsible to have blood on their hands.
The simple reason for them killing anything they don’t understand (as it is propagated in many alien-invasion and xenophobic mainstream movies) is their fear of the unknown fear of change and also their repression of own guilt.

But as if that is not enough, the double bind now is that the spiritual seeker starts to understand wrongs in a total new way which, then will bring up a tremendous amount of anger and frustration whilst not even being able to express them to the perpetrators. Usually, attemps to work them out together constructively will only make things worse by aggravating others or making them look down on one for being weak.

An example of such an insight can be the Freudian analysis of the ego:

Let’s say that your parents did educate you about their moral values,
so you try to live up to those in order to be a “good” person.
This is called the superego.
Your ego is your self (which you are working on in spirituality),
and the Id are your lower needs and wishes (your inherited limbic desires).

First the task seems in line with spiritual work (or one chooses the spirituality which matches the parental moral values) …

… but once you wake up, some aspects arise which just don’t fit into the clear black & white straight forward goal anymore.
What if in your meditation it comes up that your parents did not merely convey a clear moral goal to you, but also did condition you to adhere to their personal ID?

One case could be the dogma to cherish the parents sentimentality and therewith not being able to live your own life (which could be a classic for Hellinger’s family therapy).

A worse case would be any kind of violation (and I am not only talking about those dramatic sexual traumas, but also about much more often seen constant nagging dogmas such as political or religious believes which are enforced through guilt).

Often when such insights come up they are “explained” to the brain as definite events (which may or not even have happened that way),
or worse, are swallowed in a self-destructive or self-degrading obedience.
This sarcastically does make the person with the connection to higher realities look like a neurotic conspiracy theorist
– something which will turn the seeing accuser into an easy target to be ridiculed.

In case you had such revelations here my strategic 2 cents for you:
Since your intuition could be right, but your intellectual translation into the reason behind it wrong, I would suggest you to treat your insights with extreme caution and not accuse others, until you tested your theories a few times and they did prove to be right.
Because if you only once were wrong, most listeners will loose faith in your judgement and if things go down bad, you might even end up having to apologise to someone whom you know is energetically the cause of your pain – just not in the way you portrayed it.

Even more difficult is it in cases of family problems,
because one has the same genes as the suppressors, so a conflict is nearly pre-programmed:
2 similar characters repel each other, just as the same poles of a magnet do.

So how can you get through the waking up from a fairy tale dream into a dormant nightmare?

The first aid is to look at everything as a reflection of yourself and seeing yourself as the creator of your own world.
This will re-impower you to have the ultimate tool for changing even the most adverse circumstances.

So your parents could be seen not as your parents, but as your former self – whether it is in your genes or your previous lifes (however your belief-system works).
In case you were entangled in a victim-consciousness (which is quite normal, because we are conditioned to have experienced parents as the ones holding the power), this will move you into an empowered position.

However, since each coin holds two sides, there also is unfortunately a lesser pleasant side to this view because with great power comes great responsibility.
So the next step is then is to acknowledge that if you are the creator, then you also have to be the creator of this mess you are in, so the best you can do is to relax into it and not fight it, because else you are fighting yourself.

But this doesn’t mean to play the often propagated “love and peace” number and roll over like an obedient dog.
In order to solve the dilemma of the dogma to revere your ancestors and to protect yourself from constant attacks, it is sometimes not bad to cut family ties for a while (either externally, or internally by doing a ritual).

One ritual for example would be to visualise an umbilical chord between you and someone else and then cutting it with a sword in one hand and burning it with a torch in the other. This then will at least protect your tender soul for a while like a fence does protect a little plant until it grew stronger.

Especially for sensitive spiritual people to cut ties seems totally contrary to their agenda to implement that “we all are one” into their lives, but it is a necessary step on the way to clearly distinguish the self from the non-self as the Indian term Viveka describes it.
After all – each cell knows its place in the body, and it would be a disaster if your body could not clearly distinguish one from another.

This is why people who are too good-hearted to confine themselves often are overweight and can not loose it, because they benevolently take on issues which are not necessary theirs. The lesson is clearly that the time has come to take care for oneself as much as was done for others.

But after that insight the strategy is clear:
Simply (any maybe literally) “sit this one out”, by meditating, contemplating and relaxing into it until the waves of those unpleasant vibration slowly calmed down again.
First of all this will protect yourself and the surrounding from damage, and it also it will ensure a balanced way to slowly withdraw backwards, without loosing the compassion for the people we encounter,
(whom we subconsciously know to have the exact same dilemmas as us).

Us simply brushing them of could wipe them into the gutter of marginalisation, and it is no holistic solution to simply hop onto the bright side of life at the expense of others. After all, that is what they did and our task is to literally “rise above the occasion”.

I once saw my life as a string with many knots in irregular intervals and I realised that each of those knots is unnecessary anger which mostly arouse from narrow-mindedness.

So each time we observe one of those energetic knots and don’t put oil onto those flames our mind has the chance to expand so that those entanglements eventually dissolve themselves for being irrelevant.

When we realise that the people who hurt us were very likely our former selves,
most issues are a result of our own Karma of likely thousands of years,
so don’t be surprised if it takes decades to solve them
– after all this is fast in comparison of the time it took you to pile the issues on,
and you are transforming hurtful misconceptions and therewith bettering the world.

What we often perceive as a curse or as obstacles,
may our souls way of spoon-feeding us the tasks to be resolved.

5 Replies to “The curses of spiritual awakening”

  1. Why is meditation touted as such a great thing for mental health when it has the potential to make you feel absolutely awful?

    Great article by the way.

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    1. Thank you Amy,
      on my end communication is difficult right now, because I don’t get any notifications from wordpress and did not see yours for a while,
      and also, as I was typing a response to you and in the middle my computer crashed, so I had to start again. #mercuryRetrograde

      Your doubts regarding meditations are totally normal on the path of change, especially in our materialistic non-spiritual surrounding,
      and many people do resort to have contacts with people who condone ones needed comfort zone, just as regular drinkers do seek the company of other bar-visitors to get their absolution.

      On the other hand we also are drawn to get reaffirmations from fellow seekers, believers and practicioners, and then end up being a bit torn apart between our higher goals and lower needs.

      So I would recommend to you to observe really honestly if it is the meditation itself which does bring up the stuff, or whether your stuff is there lingering anyway and is merely brought to awareness by the meditation. I think it usually is a mix of both, because only the stuff which was there can be brought up.

      I myself do sometimes take a little break from meditating (except if I just did set up myself to do 40,90 or 120 days and thereafter restart fresh. Right now I am having one of those, and the interesting part is that I then see what did change and can observe further changes which still roll through me – but I don’t take breaks for too long, because Rudolf Steiner ones said that rhythm substitutes power just when riding a bike it is easier to keep going than stopping and starting again.

      In a way the answer to your question is very simple, because you somehow know that your soul longs for clarity and therewith a cleansing. It just sometimes can be overwhelming when you sweep your house and too much dust is brought up.
      I guess those are the times to “vent” a bit by bringing a bit of fresh air into your life by enjoying a bit of distraction like movies or doing things with your loved ones etc.

      What always brings me back to meditationis that if I don’t do it for a while I also observe that I get less cool, calm and collected.
      Meditation is a strange coin with two sides – on one hand it makes one serene, because one compresses issues into the morning-meditation-box,
      and on the other hand it does at the same time bring those issues up so one becomes more aware of them.

      But overall I myself don’t want to trade my clarity for the mainstram oblivion any longer, because I also see that this kind of dullness is what makes people controllable by them not seeing how they are dominated by other people – be it relatives or the tons of advertisors who fool our archetypal triggers into consumerism.

      Long story short: As long as you are honest to yourself your practice will regulate itself, because the insights you get from it will guide you.

      I hope this helps you to see and then follow your path.

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  2. So then why continue? I want to feel better NOW, not the hope of feeling better years from now which may not happen?

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    1. Actually, I just thought about your capital NOW, because a yoga teacher from India told me that he was inspired by Eckart Tolle’s “The power of now” book.
      Your comment is a brilliant example how we do carry our answers within our questions, because if there were an evolved master s/he probably would tell you to just observe this NOW you want to feel better in so that you get most out of it just as you get most out of a meal if you eat consciously.

      I think it is our ability to put aside personal dislikes in order to fully become aware of the NOW.
      #fakeItUntilYouMakeIt

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